Articles by: cholden
I wake up filled with thoughts of you. Your image and the exciting evening which yesterday have left my senses in turmoil. What a strange effect you have on my heart! My inner life aches with sorrow it was last night that I fully realized how hard it is to be deserted by someone you like.
This is the greatest pain I ever encountered in my entire life that comes from someone you never comprise.
My heart rages in its utmost height…
My heart keeps bleeding.
I was in my highest point of my emotion…I fell intensely from the highest altitude of love..it hurts me…it tortures me..it eradicates me.
My life is really full of suffering…the disadvantage of being ignored and not being recognized… not even given in whichever right..the right to ask…the right to dictate..
I love you more than you will ever know and more than I could ever show, but I hope that one day you will realize that it is true…I love you more than you know…
I want to fulfill something to prove that I love you so, I'm certain and sure what I'm tracking to…mainly my love that kills my momentum everyday, I feel abandoned.I feel astray…this might eliminate my consciousness including my awareness. My earnest apology for giving you so much worries and troubles, but why? A BIG WHY?! why me?! why now?!
I tried to spill out all my agonies and miseries but I fell short…I'm still suffering …I'm still crying…I LOVE YOU..that's the reason why… I love u KINZ.
Everyday I could see many stars twinkling ….. Of them some are extra bright and we can feel the content of the stars. Everyday I walk a half mile from my home to the road site, and from road site to my home in the evening. The walk is pleasant. The road on either side is flanked by green beautiful lawns and gardens. The walking solitary is good for me and then I learned something little from a little incident.
One fine morning, about a half way between my gate and the road, I noticed two exquisite girls talking in the lawn. The bigger of two was charming and admiring with golden hair and rosy cheek. The other was quite short. She was beautiful, with hazel eyes and light brown hair. Standing behind for a while was great for me. The serene scene was sad and amazing too.
The bigger one, probably her sister succinct in melancholy,
“What to do now, we are left alone and no way to live with?”
The younger sister was silent for a while.
I was amazed. Their father's name was Ngabjalor(Nu.500) and mother was Jalor (Nu.100). Elder sister was consoling her sister.
“Never be be upset. Our father didn't return after giving food. I thought he would return after few days but failed. He was now in hand of miser shopkeeper, Pema.”
“Mother will not return because she is value less now. She was gone with an arrogant fellow in the bazaar for our survival.”
“For us our shelter is already dismantled, where we will stay” replied the younger sister.
“never worry we can go together and stay near the door of shopkeeper”, said the elder.
For a whole day I was drizzled over this problem. By the afternoon they were not there. That evening I thought deeply on the subject. The next morning I explained the matter to my boss. He was severely shaken for a while.
“Presumably true happiness consists in making happy”, he said with smile. ” The object of life is to be happy, the place to be happy is here, the time to be happy is now, and the way to be happy is by making others happy”, I said. He nodded and said, “ingredient of happy life should be possessed if it should be perfect felicity. Isn't it?”
I nodded and thanked him and returned to my home with unforgettable knowledge and lesson in my life.
In the worst hours of the worst month
Of the worst day of lovers.
I, set out from hostel with my sedate bonnie sweet heart.
I was walking- we were both walking – to the road.
She was uneased with law of nature and couldn't bear.
I caught her chubby hand and proceed.
She saunter in vile with bending head
Until the busy road – meters away from dormitory.
When I stared at her exquisite face
Tears were trembling through mildly.
Of poignant. Of melancholy. Of toxin of nature
What to do, with tears I have to bear.
Before entering in her ALto, she succinct,
“Elsewhere we stay keep cemented THADAMTSE”.
I nodded with hanky on my tearful eyes.
This was the last message she conveyed to me.
Presumably felicity comes when we are with our dear
And speculate sadness comes when we depart with.
I wanna tell – it is common to unkind
And should be borne with circumstances.
But everything changed when I met this guy. He was in my 3rd period class and like me was kind of socially awkward. So I decided to be bold and introduce myself. Or a guy came and proposes me. A couple days or month later he texted me and invited me to lunch. I was surprised at first because he was a senior and seniors rarely dated freshmen at first instant. I was also hesitant because I had a boyfriend. But I came to the conclusion that it wasn't a big deal. I was just going to lunch with a friend, nothing wrong with that right? I gave a thought. But that lunch led to more little “dates”. He was so sweet to me, telling me I looked pretty, gently taking my hand when ever he got the chance. He was the boyfriend I always wanted- cute and sweet- I was very happy with him. After a couple months things began to change. Instead of going places for lunch we just walked to my house which was just down the bazaar from the school and make out. Making out soon led to other things, things I'd never done before and things that I definitely wasn't emotionally ready for. Then one day it just happened. We had sex during our lunch hour and then just went back to school like nothing had happened. I started crying in class overwhelmed by what had just happened and wishing it hadn't. I tried to comfort myself by thinking stuff like “A lot of girls do that, it's no big deal” and “I love him, that should make it okay.”
Dear friends, friendship is one of the most priced possession/gifts in the world. A friend is our alter ego. It's the most pure relationship in the world. They sow the seeds of happiness and you derive more happiness as you reap it. Just be good to friends. Don't lose your friends even if they love or hurt you.Yeh not to forget …just give them a kick when he/she has an eye on your girl/guy. Kidding!!
Keep your dear one/friends always happy…..
This is not to hurt you my dear Kinzang….. love you
Respected Miss Kinzang I'll say;
How do u do these days? I think you are fine without any problems and doing your training productively and you are destined to be fine. And i pray for the success of your profession as teacher. Be prepared to generate the best future citizens of the nation.
Here I am fine and everything is in good health except my outline mentality. Everything more will destroy the atmosphere of the professionals. Let me not stop to say about you and your very excellent characters!!! Again though it will spoil your blissful mood I am now in destined position to convey it. Sweet and bitter is my past. Everything changes on the road of life but when we look behind, we label our past with memories. God knows what might happen next and our reason to be in this world. Yes! Our life is like a river. We donot know how many twist and turns we will face. What ever happen, the only certainty is that only memories are left behind. Being born and departing is the law of nature. When we leave this world, we should leave behind good memories. BUT……………
2005, 7th October was fine. 2006 was also fine. 2007 was bit fine. And 2008, worst of all. 7th October, 2005 was the year where I achieved two goals. First I stood third position from tenth standard- aimed for. Second I got you as my best friend-intended for. Time had passed like that for one year, 2006; class XI Science, you at Baylling and me at Rangjung, approximately 150km away. Nothing bad happened. XII Science, 2007 very busy with deep integrated books. We were both worried about the final (BBE) exams. 1st December, 2007 we have done common exams. Result were declared. My happiest jiffy was on that day, where I didn't sleep hours of darkness. I got professional course in professional country. In the year 2008, my hard work proved me and i got in Engineering courses. But due to my security problem I couldn't grab an opportunity to study in-country also. How sad!!! In 2009, its not my hard work counts but this is the gift from GOD ( Ken chok Sum). I got to be member of CST Family. And I don't blow my own trumpet.
My heart is, was, were, will be always wth you. For those simple grounds you suspected me.How much I have to explain and how much you'll understand. You said, “once you make decision its like that”. It may be right or wrong. I explained you but in vain. From this , I understood that you have been waiting for this chance to come and break relation with me. I assure in the name of dear GOD that actually I don't have any fault that can be assaulted. And I don't have relation with any girls. Any how, how much I have to pour water in the upside down pot?? Since you have decided to end relation with me, its always exact and wise.
You have an affair with others. You told me. My simple advice in this regard is, “one who touches your heart will never touch your body and one who touches your body will never touch your heart”. Please remember it.
Another thing that I want to tell you is, please try to learn to except your own fault. Don't always go for alleging others. Till date my mind is always with you and it will be forever for you. A lover departs but their loves never depart. Since you have decided to break it I have to accept your decision. I have heard many unwanted and unbearable news of you while you are at Baylling and currently where you are. Even then I didn't tell you, thinking of, it wouldn't be true, i never expect from you and it would severely hurt you. But today I can;t bear the burden that you have given. You never think how others suffer. You only know how much and how you suffer. My mind never stays cool. Its hot and boils. In the vapor of my boiling mind I visualized what I have heard about you. Firstly, I was told that you have an affair with other guys. Not guy, guys. One you have expressed to me. There were and will many.
Secondly I was told, “please leave such type of sexually abused girl; no use. How great! Oh! GOD. How dare it have to snoop? Many guys touches your body, i was informed. Even then I stayed cool, thinking that it wouldn't be 100% true. I have never hate and neglect you. Instead how great! For this, not calling and suspect, everything spoiled. Though I am not a psychologist, one thing that I have learned is, I have accepted my fault of not calling, after exposing all these reasons u pressured me to break relation: that means what i have heard were all true and that is why you have not send your photos, telling that its summer and the river has swollen. What I have heard were all true and that is and will be your moral characters as teacher. When I tell all these, please I request don't get frustrated where anger is only a self demolition.
When I meet my friends all ask me about relation between you and me> What i can or will tell? The moment I heard words about you, my eyes filled with tears. Its very embarrassing. What to do? For love I am not That weak to sacrifice my tears. Once upon a time everybody praises your good characters to me. That is the reason why I have not believe what i have heard. But, “LOW JAPHU TAE RUNG JAPHU TOEM” and”LOW TAE ME ME GE HING KU” is you. Frankly saying, you are a coward, thae goap thae tsharwa dalu, ther is no points of thinking and regretting.
I am sending your letters and all. Its not to hurt you. Its useless keeping with.It gives nothing than sadness and make eyes wet. I am keeping your gifts and photos as long remembrance. One thing I want to tell you regarding this, please ………… don't throw my photos in the dust bin. Instead you please…….. burn it.
Any how I end here and say, “Best wishes and good luck to get thousands of stars. You aim it carefully and shoot it. Please…………………. I tell in mercy, don't let your good story end like the true story of “FLY AND THE SPIDER”
So, lastly i end here with lots of best wishes and good luck to have very successful life ahead…….
Asst. Chemist (Quality Control)
S.D Eastern BHutan Fesi (P) Ltd
Phuntsho Rabtenling (Plantsite)
Once it was in morning assembly, I have manipulated others to ensure that she stands by my side. My simple plan was to give her an epistle. And I thought to ask if she is interested in me.?? A simple “yes” or “no” answer to a single question. But my hesitancy didn't allow. Then a plain idea strikes my mind. To act on it I got my friends to start rumors about the fact that I am crazy about her.
A lifetime friendship can start when we are a little child but many times these friendships are only for a certain period. We get friends when we are going to school; to play with and probably we have many common interests. When we become older it is sometimes hard to keep these friendships alive. At this stage in our life we will probably be in relationships or have gotten married. Keeping in touch is not always easy because very often we live far from each other and our free time is limited.
I really believe that lifetime friendships exist and I was almost sure I found one five years ago. It happened during my ninth and tenth standard at Tashigang. I never was in group. I never mingle with my mates. I was not sure how this happened. The day I realize it was SHE. And worst of all our true friendship was shattered due to distance and belief systems.
Friendships are important in life and if you find a real friend I am quite sure that real friendships exist for a lifetime. It happens very frequently that friendships have a longer lifetime than a romantic relationship or a marriage and you can also have lifetime friendships with someone of the opposite sex. True friendship is really beautiful and offers you benefits for a lifetime.
Cheers and be friend!!!!!
To the unemployed youth of Bhutan- Life is a mixture as we all know. Just the way diamonds are rare, so we as an individual is rare. Every individual will not be same. Amongst the thousands of different types of life, being born as a human being is no less than being a diamond in a coal mine!
We should frequently ask to ourselves, in what stage of life we are in? We need to think and know what need to discover within us and it will be wonder that most of us live life without discovering that we have something special within us! At times, even when we realize that there is special within us, we never bother to shape it properly, or rather, fail to get the right teachers who can shape that specialty and bring out.
After hearing and reading many stories of success and failure, its actually a wonderful thing that I know and learn. Success can be enjoyed but cannot be passed on. Our parents, relatives, friends etc, being successful in no way guarantees that we as an individual will be successful too!
Everybody is scared of failures. I have seen lots of failures and too have failed a lot. Failing in exams doesn't mean that we have failed in life. There are miles to go. As a teenager or handsome and beautiful young men whether it will be right or wrong, we just know one fact – we never want to be poor. So having that fact in oneself we have to employ oneself and work hard irrespective of what the work is. Don't discard it as a blue collar job and don't rejoice it as a white collar job. Just we need to work hard with passion and dedication and out of desperation and belief.
And remember that, Mr. Shah Rukh Khan, the “King of Bollywood” just signed and acted in films which were discards of actors; – films,for which producers could not find anyone to act. He acted in all of them just to make sure that he continued working and avoid unemployment. He worked very hard on those movies. And he is now a big star….
Don't grief and worry with your work and if you fail remember failure is not fatal. We need to know that failure give and incentives to work harder, an act which invariably leads to some kind of success in most cases. So work hard whenever you fail. It is an amazing teacher. It also help us to wake up with a passion to strive harder. We will never learn if we never fail. if we don't learn we will never grow and shape the speciality that we have in us!
And somebody rightly said; If you are a street sweeper, so be it. Clean your street so well that others are forced to acknowledge your existence and feel that ” here lived a street sweeper who did his job well”; because anything worth is worth doing passionately and hard work. Else, neither will you be happy, nor will you success, and interestingly, nor will you earn money.
And too, Mr. Amitabh Bachan, tallest man in Indian cinema, sometimes he recollects – as a young boy when film festivals were held in a big hall he used to stand on pavement outside the hall and think one day he'll also be in the hall and have opportunity to see and meet all those big stars. Now he had discovered what is within him, work hard and he is a greatest Actor of stage and screen. I rejoice to see him receiving numerous awards and people cheering for him.
If we employ our self for what we get, work hard and discover the specialty within us we as an individual will be happy and people as a whole will rejoice for our success.
TRY AND BE ONE TO MASTER THE HIGHEST MOUNTAIN, WALK ON MOON AND DRIVE THROUGH DEEPEST OCEAN.