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Whether to take it or leave it, My Indecisiveness

24 Dec 2010 Author ugeent

I am into my eighth year of service and nature of my job is to serve the people in the remotest corners of the Country. In the history of my job, I have been to the place where for the native there, I have been the first civil servant, for that matter government representative in their locality. Imagine how far such place could have been. However, I have served with determination and commitments forgoing all my own comforts and realities of life.

With not much to do in such secluded place, reading of all sorts became my companion. If there is anything, reading was the only sensible source of entertainment. There was no choice of book, anything printed with alphabets served the purpose. Television, Radio, Telephone, Cars and cable would be few times experience in a year when visit has to be made to report to the Dzongkhag headquarters virtually to report that I am still alive. For most of the year round, the path through the impenetrable jungles, swelling rivers and high mountains would remain blocked.

Even during such rare visits, my luggage back home would be predominantly of newspapers, magazines, Novels, books and anything I can lay my hand upon. I read them over and again literally like a monk would read his prayer books just for the sake. The rations were an option when I can manage from any villagers with myself being the one and only family member. The regular visits at the household level stocked me enough when the native out of their sheer humility would present me with whatever they grew. In return I left them soelra, in the gratitude. We literally co-survived in such environment.

Unknown to me, my voracious reading helped me hone my writing skill. Day in day out, the habit rewarded me with increasing vocabularies. Although I had just the basic of the language during my educational period, I developed a good command over the language solely due to my reading through the lines. Atleast among the peers of my standard, I outshone each of them.

I still continue reading since I have learnt the lesson that it has rewards and moreso I am still in one remote gewog. But for these time around, I atleast have the access to GPRS, a B-mobile internet facility. I also utilized such proficiency of mine to the best benefit when combined with my regular job, I offered service out of box. I kept on continuously contributing all field news to the web and print media of the ministry I work. My proficiency came to limelight and I am now being offered the permanent job there. I would be then based in Information and Communication wing of the Ministry which my job primarily be of writing journals which fits my passion like a round peg in round hole. 

Now it is like a morsel of quality food dropped in front of stray dog. How can he ensure it is not poisoned? Is it worth relishing the morsel? Can stray dog be able to digest such quality food since he has never eaten it? Similarly, it is an opportunity for me to work in Capital, the dream workplace for every one. But will I be able to survive there, only because I have been in the remote for so long? Will I be able to cope up with Thimphu life which is in fast forward mode? Is it an opportunity too good to let it to slip by or deny? Am I not throwing myself into the hot water? Is the pasture there as green as I see it from there.

Darn, I have more questions than the answers. But as an old Bhutanese adage goes, “discuss with other, decide yourself”.         

4 responses to “Whether to take it or leave it, My Indecisiveness”

  1. Raj Kumar says:

    Hi Ugyen,
    It was so nice meeting you in one of the remote places–(Wangshing Lhakhang) last time during the Tshechu.
    I remember those “sips” of beer in that packed tent. And a cute little baby on your lap and the festive mood the rural folks danced with.  It is always so much on offer in those so called “remote places”, Ugyen. 
     I haven't lived for long in the remote places as you have, but I have visited and walked along so many far flung, remote communities–(if only if I had a speedometer on my legs, that I could tell the exact KMs I travelled) And I know how much and what it means to be serving those needy ones–the amount of happiness hidden within those beautiful innocent eyes, the wisdom wrapped within those greyed beards and musical notes within those traditions of mutual respect. I Love it and can only acknowledge the great service(s) done by civil servants like you and many others. 

     You will see the difference sure enough when you come to live in Thimphu and may be, more so, even, understand what it means to be so called “modern educated society”. 
    Welcome to Thimphu, Ugyen. We shall sail together here on I guess. Keep writing your thoughts for the remote folks from the comforts of your new chair in the Ministry.

  2. Arrogant Buddha says:

    From my side; TAKE IT.

  3. Tashi Rigyelnorphel says:
  4. Ugyen Tshering says:

    Dear Shyam,
    I too can clearly remember our meeting although it was brief. Actually, i regret that i couldn't host you guys well. I wanted to sit around one evening in my home especially because i know Mr. Thinley Dorji, SNV quite well. But you people were all busy and engrossed. My sincere apology for tht.

    But having been in the remote for so long, i am skeptic about what urban metropolis has to offer. It begins from the house rent and everything. Will i be able to even survive? I am on the crossroad and i just don't want to jump into conclusion. Lest i pray all for well….